After I graduated, I made sure that I wouldn’t lose my own identity. Not that I was really distinct from other people, but I knew that I was a little more fearless back then. I’d still run away screaming like a girl at the first sight of a cockroach, but for everything else, I was open to trying anything once and take risks.
However, when I finally got a job, I failed to notice that I was starting to lose myself. I became a little more reserved and quiet, unwillingly stopped drawing because of my busy schedule, started wearing plain clothes. Day by day, the college kid was fading and started conforming to what society wanted me to be.
And then the best decision I’ve ever made happened–I quit my job. However, things still didn’t feel the same and I’m guessing it would take a while before the jolly ‘ol me kicks in. And as some sort of ritual for being reborn, I needed a big physical change.
Since high school, it has always been a small dream of mine to have blue hair but it has been difficult to get the dye here in the 3rd world. Thank the heavens for Nadin cause she ordered a few online and I bought a couple of bottles from her, Turquoise and Lagoon Blue. So I’m hoping they’ll last me for at least half of the year. And big thanks to my friend Carla, for the help with the haircut.
And I don’t give a rat’s ass if I look like an effin’ troll doll! I freakin’ love it! Hahahaha.